Take a step into my mind about my path to Buddhism

Well, I've always been confused in what to believe in. 

My dad is catholic and my mom is christian. And my grandma (my moms mom) is very christian. She, to me, would kinda shove Christianity down my throat. But unknowingly doing it, but she did. Her church where my mom also went to, is very well crazy. If you aren't christian or don't believe in God, you are pretty much Satan or a sin or whatever. That is how that church is, where I wanted nothing to do with. 

I have been to 2 other churches. One of them I did like where it wasn't a crazy amount of "you have to believe this or your wrong!" kind of thing. But on the other hand, the other church I went to well that's NOT what they did. I literally had my jaw down to the ground because I couldn't believe what I was hearing and seeing. AND I was in youth group not even a normal service. So I don't even want to see or hear what happens in that service. I almost got up and LEFT youth group. I wanted yell at the person talking and tell them to shut the hell up. It is wrong to shove shit down children's throats. Don't do that in any circumstance.

Now I never went with either of my parents religions. I always knew that I believed in something different than most people but never could put the "title" to it. I always was in love with witches, Halloween, and Harry Potter. So I always wanted to become witch. Make spells and potions but clearly that really can't happen. But I did find out about Paganism and Wicca which thought was where I belong but I was wrong about that too. 

I did get into it but secretly because really no one is into it and people think it's weird and creepy. Thinking I am a Satan lover but NO that is not what paganism and Wicca is. I loved these religions because they corresponded with nature. I also DIDN'T specifically go by these as religions, more on the sense of guidelines to make my own religion. With these religions they have different "topics" into it. I tried many different topics but nothing really stuck/ felt right.

I watched just ONE YouTube video and it changed my life. I watched a video by Simply_Kenna where she explained her side of Buddhism.  
Her video lightened me up and showed me the world that I want to be a part of. 

Buddhism: is a nontheistic religion or philosophy that encompasses a variety of traditions, beliefs and spiritual practices largely based on teachings attributed to Gautama Buddha, commonly known as the Buddha ("the awakened one"). 

I believed in (before I chose any sort of religion) nature, that mother nature was my "god". We live on a Earth, a planet that has trees and water which is nature. No religion, that I knew, corresponded with just nature so I was lost....until now. 

Even though Buddhism isn't nature focused but spiritually it is where my mind set is. Also, the fact of just being a good person is just what I want to be. I want to follow this to have a happy wonderful life.

So all in all, I think if I have to give a title to what I believe in, I would chose Buddhism. It is freeing, mentally sane, spiritual, and down to earth.

I will continue my journey with Buddhism and hopefully will be able to call it my religion. :)   

So thanks for taking a read at my extremely long religion talk! 

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